Update view!

I'm sorry for taking so long between updates, and even sorrier that I'm not back on SL yet, but life as always came up.

Specifically, in between the last update and now, I have really been enjoying my real life. A few days at the beach and four REALLY FANTASTIC days of CONvergence have done a lot for my mental health. I'm thinking of going to Valleyfair before the end of the summer. Certainly a trip to the Renaissance Festival is a necessity - my girlfriend needs a formal shirt for our friends' wedding at the beginning of October.

I still love all of you and I desperately miss some of you (Boy! You know my Yahell IM; I'm also checking my e-mail now at la.maupin@gmail.com). I'll do my very best to get back on SL in the next week or so but this weekend ended up being more busy than I thought.

Please drop me a line!

Connie Update

My compy is still sick.

Unfortunately, so am I, and getting myself better before CONvergence (http://www.CONvergence-con.org) takes precedence over getting my computer up and running.

Sorry about the extension of my off-SL time, I am working on getting back asap.

Oh god...

Wellp. My computer is rather screwed, for what reason I know not.

Can't access the internet. Can't even get it set up.

If somebody has a spare full install of Windows XP, preferably XP Pro, lying around, I'd dearly appreciate it. Otherwise I'm not going to be in SL again for at least a month, more probably two plus.

My laptop appears to be working again, but it lacks the muscle to run Second Life.

Horrible Emergency

My computer is badly messed up. I am not sure when I will be able to get on SL again.

My laptop might still work (I am currently posting from my RL partner's computer). But my laptop will not run Second Life (it barely runs World of Warcraft).

I apologize deeply for this to everybody, especially Dream, Becca and Owner.

C-8082 is dead. Long live Connie!

Last night after a bit of delay, the custodian was removed and I emerged from the dissolving black rubber, crying and shaking.

I came to a realization about myself in that thing... I am a profoundly damaged person. I have been hurt in the past and those hurts have left scars that have never healed. I have a very difficult time trusting any domme because I have been abused by one and abandoned by another.

I want to trust again. But it is so hard. I want to feel that I am worth something to somebody outside of myself.

*curls up on herself and cries*

GET ME OUT OF THIS THING

My time is up. My sentence is served. My suit has returned its keys to me.

GET IT OFF OF ME.

All right, last 10 hours

I am going to take a calculated risk here and leave myself on in the background today. If it works out all right, I will be out of my suit tonight.

For me, at least, this has been an unfortunate exercise in selfishness. Worse, it's been excruciatingly boring, and I've felt horribly guilty at the number of my friends and loved ones who have been begging me to come out of my suit.

I love you, my darlings. I'll see you soon.